As I sit down to write this post I literally do not know where to begin. How to describe the last few days. How to explain what we’ve been through. I appreciate that unless you live with PDA it is a very difficult condition to understand. Believe me it’s hard enough for us!
I’ll begin with the positives. My little boy really enjoyed his birthday! He was relaxed, calm and very happy. He happily chatted to friends and family who popped over to see him. He loved all of his presents and cards. He loved his cake. He didn’t want to go out for tea but thoroughly enjoyed his favourite takeaway of McDonald’s. He went to bed a very happy boy. We were overjoyed that his birthday was a success!
The next day however was a completely different story. His mood changed rapidly, from happy to angry, from calm to hyper. Everything was wrong and nothing was right. I didn’t have 5 minutes to myself as his needs and demands were constant throughout. Bedtime was a disaster and it was 1.30am before he finally dropped off!
The weekend hasn’t been much different. We have been faced with numerous challenges, meltdowns and tricky episodes. One morning it took him over 2 hours to begin eating his breakfast, the reasons behind which I can’t even begin to explain! This was not simply 2 hours of him not eating, it was 2 hours of demands, shouting and upset. Later that day he got very distressed that I was having to leave the house briefly to pick up his sister and the only way to get round it was to turn it into a game with him timing me. That evening he refused to start the bedtime routine until after his brother finished his homework (?!?!) and again was not able to sleep until late into the night. The days have been long and tiring for us all.
What is hard to accept is the impact that one special event has on my little boy. It has negatively affected him for 3 whole days. Routines have gone awry. Behaviours have been extreme. How sad that he has to endure such huge emotional struggles because of his own birthday. I just hope that for him the happy memories of his birthday override the anxiety that followed.